Raining spell for
love
The atmosphere at the hospital in the Pondok Indah area,
South Jakarta was quite busy that afternoon. An accident occurred which
resulted in a motorcyclist bleeding in the nose and ears. Doctor Keira, who was
in charge of the emergency room, rushed to carry out help and examination.
Assisted by young nurses who are currently interning. After completing the
examination and handling of the patient the doctor came out of the emergency
room. Someone suddenly called out to her,
"Doctor Keira!"
The woman immediately turned towards the source of the
voice. After knowing who greeted her, Keira immediately smiled. This person is
Doctor Tania. Keira's close friend.
Keira is a general practitioner at a private hospital in
South Jakarta. At 28, she became a young doctor who was admired by many for her
patience and persistence. Keira is the type of person who is always ignorant of
all the talk that comes to her and only focuses on what she wants to aim for
and achieve. That's why Tania, Keira's friend, admires her so much.
Keira and Tania have been friends since they were in the
same department when they were in college. They even work in the same hospital,
so they end up working in the same place. For Tania, Keira is both her friend
and sister.
"Tania." Keira say hello to her. Tania also rushed
over to her friend. She immediately hugged Keira tightly.
"Come home from the hospital, let's watch a movie with
me please! It's been a long time since we went out together. " Invite
Tania.
Instantly Keira grimaced. She remembered her promise to
Erlangga, her Boyfriend, to watch a movie in the cinema as well as eat dinner
today. They had promised to spend some time alone after Erlangga had been busy
with office matters for several weeks.
"I'm really sorry, I can't do it today. I already have
an appointment with Erlangga to go on a date. It's been a while since we dated
the problem. Then he said he wanted to talk about something important. "
Keira spoke to Tania with a look asking for understanding. Tania, who got a
response that didn't match her expectations, finally frowned. But then she
sighed and said,
“It's okay. Next time, then. Anyway, you really didn't see
each other these days. So, it's natural that you want to let go dating.”
Tania said this in a mocking tone. But those who were being
ridiculed only smiled and nodded. Finally, after receiving a refusal from
Keira, Tania said goodbye to go to visit her patients.
After Tania's leaving, Keira continued walking into her room
to rest. In the not too large room, Keira was daydreaming. Thinking about her
relationship with Erlangga which has been running for almost three years.
Her memory is still clearly recorded when she meets
Erlangga, who is Natasha's cousin, Keira and Tania's best friend when they were
in college. At that time, when she and Tania were visiting Natasha's house
because they had not seen each other for a long time, Erlangga happened to be
there. Then Natasha introduced Keira and Tania to Erlangga. Erlangga introduces
himself as a general manager. After that short introduction, Erlangga felt
attracted to Keira until he finally approached Keira.
At that time Keira was too scared to have a relationship
because she saw too many toxic relationships around her. Especially about her
family background. She was always afraid and insecure. But Erlangga continued
to convince Keira that Erlangga loved her and the man felt he deserved the
opportunity. Erlangga continues to pay attention to Keira which ultimately
makes her melt and receive Erlangga's love.
Until now, Keira was actually confused. She really loves
Erlangga. Who doesn't love a handsome and loving man like Erlangga. Moreover,
the man loved his mother very much. But she still doesn't know what the end of
this relationship will be like. Because to be honest, Keira doesn't want to get
married. She didn't want to commit to starting a family. She was too scared for
that. her family's condition was the reason for the fear.
In the midst of her reverie, suddenly Keira's cellphone
rang. Keira immediately received the call.
"Hello, Ad. What’s wrong?" said Keira.
Someone across the street replied, "I'll come home from
work to visit mom, Sis. Do you want to bring something, maybe?"
The person on the other side continued, "Mom and Naira
as usual, I will bring their favorite food."
"Oh, don't worry. You just come to the house. I'll not
go home right away because I have an appointment. But Naira is at home anyway.”
Keira tried to explain that even though there is not her at home, there is
still Naira. Naira is her half-sister. The daughter of her mother and
stepfather who now lives with Keira.
"Okay sis then I'll hang up the phone, okay?" that
person said goodbye to Keira.
"Yes, Ad."
Tut. The phone finally disconnected.
The one who just called Keira is Keira's half-brother,
Adrian. Yes. Keira has two half-brothers. If Naira is the daughter of her
mother, then Adrian is the son of her father and the father’s second wife.
Keira, Adrian and Naira, even though they are only half-brother-sister, but
they still maintain the ties of brotherhood. Occasionally Adrian often visits
Keira's house.
Adrian is an orphan. Adrian's mother had died due to illness
when he was five years old. Because Adrian's father felt unable to care for his
child alone, finally Adrian's father entrusted Adrian to his uncle and aunt
until Adrian graduated from high school. But now Adrian is an adult and already
has his own income so he decided to leave his aunt and uncle's house and rent a
house. But every weekend he still visited his uncle's house.
Then how's Keira and Adrian's father? Their father has
remarried and has a new family in Kalimantan. That's what the Keira family
describes. It's really complicated.
When the time showed 18.30 WIB, it meant that it was time
for Keira to leave the hospital. The woman went straight to the toilet to tidy
up her appearance. After that she rushed to the parking lot to find his car.
Keira got into her car and was driving at medium speed. The streets of the
capital are not very congested today.
And when she arrived at the destination, she immediately
called Erlangga to tell him where the man's position was.
When the man on the other side picked up her call, Keira
voiced,
"Where are you? I've been in place. "
"I’m behind you." Erlangga's voice was
heard on Keira's cellphone.
Keira looked back with her smartphone still attached to her
ear. Instantly Keira was stunned. Today Erlangga looks so charming with a white
shirt and black cloth pants coupled with a shiny phantom. Moreover, the man
rolled up his shirt sleeves to his elbows. His neatly styled hair reveals his
sexy forehead. Ugh, and don't forget the eyeglasses perched on top of his sharp
nose. All that added to his charm in Keira's eyes.
Keira didn't know why she became nervous and excited like
this. And again, Erlangga looked even more charming than usual. Maybe because
it has been a long time since they met and harbored longing for it, so her
feelings are now overflowing.
Erlangga smiled. Such a cute smile that made the girls melt.
Then he turned off the phone, tucked it into his cloth pants. Keira who was
nervous also did the same with her cellphone and immediately put the smartphone
into the bag.
Erlangga took the girl's hand to hold.
"Why are you so nervous?" asked Erlangga with an
amused expression. It was unusual for him to see her girlfriend nervous like
this.
“Who's nervous? I'm not nervous. Just shocked you were
behind me. "
Keira, who was embarrassed because she was caught nervous,
immediately answered Erlangga's question in a denial tone that sounded funny.
"Really?" while still holding back his feelings of
amusement towards Keira.
Keira was silent.
"Okay, let's go hurry tonight." Not wanting to
make Keira even more embarrassed, finally Erlangga immediately invited Keira to
enter the cinema because Erlangga had already bought the ticket earlier.
After finishing watching the successful film that made Keira
scream throughout the film, they then decided to head to the restaurant they
had chosen for dinner. Erlangga and Keira drove their respective cars.
Erlangga directed Keira to a restaurant in the Senopati
area, South Jakarta. The name of the restaurant is Nana Dining. This restaurant
provides Indonesian food with an extraordinary unique taste and of course the
taste that feels like “luxury food” is what makes this restaurant quite famous.
Erlangga had made a reservation there a week before. He invited Keira to
experience new things by eating at Nana Dining. Erlangga first arrived there,
then followed by the entry of Keira's car.
When Keira got out of her car, Erlangga walked over to her.
The man suddenly stroked Keira's Long hair, then cupped his left hand on the
girl's cheek. Erlangga looked Keira's eyes deeply. The man seemed like he was
trying to say something.
But definitely Keira didn't know what he meant, so she could
only stare into the boy's eyes with the question that had settled in her mind.
Keira, who realized that they were still in the restaurant parking lot, finally
gently let go of Erlangga's hand. Erlangga again just smiled and said,
"Come on."
The man grabbed his lover's hand and took her. Entering the
inner restaurant, Keira could feel a nice and warm atmosphere. Erlangga
reserved a table near the window with two seats facing each other.
After they chose the menu, Erlangga started a conversation.
"What do you think of this place, Ra?"
“Nice and comfortable. The menu is unique even though I
haven't tried it how it tastes. But I hope it tastes good, the price per
portion is exorbitant." Keira tried to say honestly but was interrupted
with a joking tone.
Even though she knew for sure that she didn't need to spend
money to enjoy luxurious things like this, because Erlangga would definitely be
ready to take out his wallet.
Hearing Keira's words, Erlangga laughed and tried to grab
Keira's hand to hold.
In his heart, Erlangga prayed that Keira's answer today will
match his expectations. To be honest, Erlangga is currently nervous. But
finally, the nervousness was broken by the arrival of the waiter who brought
the food they ordered.
They both enjoyed the meal solemnly.
Erlangga finished eating first. He observed Keira who was
enjoying his meal. Suddenly the nervousness returned when he saw Keira who had
finished with her meal. This is the time for Erlangga to say his goal.
"Ra." Erlangga tried to start by calling Keira.
"Hmm?" Keira just muttered in reply.
"I want to talk to you something. But before that, let
me talk to the end and don't interrupt. Do you understand?" Erlangga tried
to ask for understanding from his lover.
Keira finally could only nod with uncertainty. Between being
scared and wanting to know what Erlangga would say.
Erlangga sighed softly at the same time praying in his
heart. Because this will be his first experience.
"Ra,"
“…”
"We have been in a relationship for about three years.
I'm sure you already know where this relationship will end. We're both adults.
I couldn’t possibly make a relationship with you just for fun while I'm not
young anymore. When I confessed to you, I was already thinking where this
relationship will end. You must know what I mean. Now I want to ask you. Do you
want to be my life companion, spend your age with me?"
Keira, who did not expect that Erlangga would say this to her,
could only be silent. She tried to swallow hardly.
Seeing Keira who was just silent, finally Erlangga made his
voice again.
"Ra. Say something please, Ra. "
"If today you say 'yes', tomorrow I'll come to your
parents to ask permission to propose to you officially.
We can't keep in touch like this, Ra. My age is too mature.
I'm thirty-one years old. I love you. And I’m sure you already love me, right?
I know first time you accepted me not because you felt love like I feel. You
accept me because you start to feel used to me having to keep you close to you,
right?"
Keira grew silent. She was surprised to know that Erlangga
knew about the reason in the past. Is she too easy to read? she did accept
Erlangga as her lover because she felt used to Erlangga's presence around her.
Keira accepted Erlangga to be her first lover. Even though Erlangga is not
Keira's first love, having a relationship with a man is her first experience.
"We have been together for three years. Three years
we've gone through a lot together. You don't want to live with me, Ra? You love
me, right? "
Erlangga kept trying to get Keira to speak up. The man
gripped Keira's hand tightly. Meanwhile, Keira was getting restless. When asked
whether she loves Erlangga or not, of course she loves him. But Keira was
unable to say. She's too scared.
Not only is Keira nervous, Erlangga also looks more anxious
waiting for his girlfriend to open her mouth. He was afraid to hear Keira's
answer. Is it true that Keira loves him? Or had he been making assumptions all
this time? So far, Erlangga has always believed that he could make Keira love
him even though at the beginning of their relationship only Erlangga fell in
love. But can't love come from being used to it?
"I ... I'm sorry I can't." And finally, Keira made
a sound. But that was not the answer Erlangga had hoped for.
"Why? Why can't you? Are you not ready yet? Or was it
that I was mistaken all this time? You still don't love me? I spent more than
two years trying to make you love me, Ra. Because I have a dream that I can
marry you and live happily with you. What made you not want to marry me, Ra?
Could it be that this is a matter of social status among our families? Ra, my
family is not that small. My family doesn't— "
"not! It is not that." Keira interrupted
Erlangga's words. Keira really wanted to say out loud that she really loved
that man. But she didn't have the courage. She is afraid of marriage. She was
afraid that if she married later, she would not be faithful like her father,
and was afraid that she would become a mother who was tough, angry and
impatient like her. She is afraid to marry and then divorce like her father and
mother.
Seeing her mother fighting every day with her stepfather
really affected the girl's personality and mentality. Especially seeing her
biological father who doesn't even care about the state of his children from his
two previous marriages. Her father has even been married three times, while her
mother has been twice. All of that really became a mental burden. Really, she does
not want to feel it all. Every day she got more and more terrified when she
heard people discussing marriage.
Too long silent and holding back, finally Keira began to say
her heart restlessness.
"I don't want to get married and commit because I'm
afraid."
"afraid? Afraid of what? Speak clearly, Ra!”
Keira didn't answer and just shook her head softly. Don't
want to explain anything. No, Keira didn't want to explain the reason for her
fear to Erlangga because it was tantamount to exposing her family to shame.
Obviously, Keira didn't want to.
Not wanting to linger there, Keira immediately got up from her
seat. She just wanted to go home. Just when she took a step, she heard Erlangga
voice again which made her fall silent with her back to the man while holding
back tears.
"I've made a deal with my mother. If I can't marry you,
that means I agree to introduced to the daughter of my mom's friends. Now the
key is in you, Ra. Once you step out of here without giving me the answer I
expected, then we're done.”
Keira's chest felt tight when she heard Erlangga's words. She
wanted to cry out loud. But she felt that Erlangga shouldn't end up with a girl
with an unhealthy mentality like herself. Until whenever she will not dare to
step into a serious relationship. The fear that enveloped her overpowered her
love for him. So even though she really loves Erlangga, then the choice taken
by Keira is to step away from the restaurant without giving Erlangga the answer
he wanted.
Six months after the end of their dinner, Keira and Erlangga
were no longer in touch, either in person or by phone. Keira no longer
remembered her sadness. She was too busy with her patients in the hospital.
Although sometimes there is a longing in her heart. She really wanted to go to
see Erlangga. She missed that handsome man. Missing his charming smile, his
sweet and sexy voice. Keira missed everything about Erlangga.
Today is Thursday. Keira has been discharged from the
hospital since 14.30 WIB. Now she is spending her time at a café in the Kemang
area of South Jakarta. She sat alone in the corner of the cafe near the
window.
When she was eating matcha ice cream while opening her
Instagram, suddenly she saw Natasha posting a photo of the engagement event.
The figure in the photo made Keira suddenly feel suffocated and sick. Suddenly she
wanted to cry, her hand that was holding her smartphone shook. When she came
home from her last dinner with Erlangga she couldn't even cry. Today with all
the strength she has, she tries to smile accepting everything that has become her
decision. You can say that she was insane because she let go of someone as
sincere as Erlangga. But she will remain strong. She didn’t realize since when she
felt the rain falling from her eyes down her cheeks. Is this the end of her
love story? In her heart she said that this was all right.
She still loves him even though they are not together
anymore. Someone once said that Love may not always keep us together.
And yeah, Keira's love story ends here.
While she was lamenting her heartbreak, she suddenly
remembered one of Super Junior's songs whose lyrics reflect her current heart. She
started to earpod and put them on her ears. Then she started playing the song.
Raining spell for love
(super junior)
I loved you from the start, you know
It's never gonna change
I swear to god
Your sighs make me lose my speech
Your lips are silent
You and I have stopped in time (in this place)
No one is in the rain
But just one lone umbrella
I stop in place at the emptiness of it
I cover my ears, it can't be
I close my eyes
Pretending nothing is wrong, But I know
I don't know why, but rain is falling in my eyes
I couldn't say anything like that, just for a day
Catch the cloud that is getting far away
So the raindrops that block you won't stop
Catch the ticking time
So this moment can freeze and love won't stop
The sky is cloudy and is spilling out tears
I call out to you from the top of my lungs
But even the echo with your name
Gets locked in the rain
It's okay if it swallows me
My heart won't get wet
Love won't stop
Don't wash out the spreading memories
(Don't try to erase it)
Don't try to melt the connection
(Don't try to cut it)
Ice-like rain has engraved in my heart
This endless raining spell
If there is a spell that makes you come back to me
If you come back
Even if my entire body gets wet, I can take it
Catch the cloud that is getting far away
So the raindrops that block you won't stop
Catch the ticking time
So this moment can freeze and love won't stop
I hold out my hand, I loudly call out to you
But it fades away at the pouring rain
After holding back, you fall again in my heart
When will the tears stop?
Catch the cloud that is getting far away
So the raindrops that block you won't stop
Catch the ticking time
So this moment can freeze and love won't stop
I wander, looking for the lost you
I resent the rain that let you go
But I will hold onto the last rain drop
As I close my eyes
So love won't stop
^The whole story idea was inspired by Super Junior's song - Raining Spell for Love.
^Tampak kacau sekali cerita saya. Maklum lah penulis amatir. Khayalannya masih level sinetron indosiar. Ku menangiisss...
I give you the Link to watch and listen to Super Junior's Song
Live Clip Super Junior - Raining Spell for Love (remake ver)
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